Part 2: A Seven-Year-Old Boy Stood Outside Our Clubhouse Gate Every Afternoon For Two Weeks Without Saying A Word — On Day Fifteen, He Told Me What He Wanted, And It Wasn’t What Any Of Us Expected

Let me back up. Let me tell you about the clubhouse, because it matters.

The Iron Drifters MC Bakersfield chapter has existed since 1978. We are not a 1%er club. We are not an outlaw club. We are eleven middle-aged men who have ridden together for twenty, thirty, forty years, who hold a memorial run every Memorial Day for a brother named Eddie who died on a dry stretch of the 99 in 1991, and who run a yearly toy drive for the Bakersfield Children’s Hospital that the local paper has covered exactly once in eighteen years.

We are not glamorous. We are mechanics, plumbers, two retired cops, an HVAC guy, a long-haul trucker who is home four days a month, and Hank, who runs a small frame shop off Chester Avenue and has been our president since 2004.

Our clubhouse is a two-bay garage that used to be a tire shop. It sits on the corner of Union and 4th, in a part of Bakersfield where the houses are small and the lawns are mostly dirt and the kids ride their bikes in the street because there are no sidewalks. We bought the building in 1996. We put up a chain-link fence. We painted the back wall with our charter year. We have a couch that has been in there since the Clinton administration.

In the afternoons, between about three and six, the bay doors are usually open. Brothers come by after work to wrench on their bikes. There is always music. There is always the sound of a torque wrench, an air compressor, a V-twin firing up, somebody yelling at somebody else about a Raiders game, somebody else yelling back about how the Raiders haven’t been worth a damn since they left Oakland. The door of the mini-fridge slamming. The chain rattle when somebody adjusts a sprocket. The leather creak when a guy sits down on the couch with a beer.

We are loud. We have always been loud. It is the noise of grown men who have known each other a long time being grown men together.

That is what the kid wanted.

I will tell you what I learned about the little blue stucco house on East Brundage Lane after I came back from talking to him at the gate.

The kid’s name was Mateo. He was seven years old. He lived with his grandmother, a woman named Rosalba, who was sixty-three and who had raised him alone since his mother — her daughter — had died of an overdose when Mateo was three. She was his legal guardian. She worked nights cleaning offices at a medical building on Stockdale Highway.

Rosalba was deaf. She had been born deaf. She did not speak. She communicated with Mateo, and with the world, in American Sign Language and through written notes.

The little blue stucco house on East Brundage Lane had no television. It had no radio. They could not afford the cable bill, and Rosalba had no use for either, and so neither had ever been turned on in that house in Mateo’s seven years of memory.

He came home from school at 3:30 in the afternoon. He let himself in with a key on a shoelace around his neck. His grandmother was usually still asleep — she worked from midnight to 8 a.m. — and even when she was awake, the house was silent.

He had homework. He had a coloring book. He had two library books. He had his grandmother, who he loved, who loved him back, who could not make a sound.

What he did not have, in that house, between the hours of 3:30 p.m. and 7 p.m. when his grandmother got up to make dinner — was the sound of a human voice.

So at 3:58 p.m., he walked four blocks. To the loudest place in his neighborhood.

I want you to picture me walking back into the clubhouse on the afternoon of October 9th.

There were eight brothers inside. Hank, our president, was at the workbench cleaning a carburetor. Two-Beer Tom was on the couch. Stinky and Carlos were arguing about something, probably the Raiders. A prospect named Ramon was sweeping. Big Mike was on his back under the lift working on a 2003 Road King. Pete and Dale were drinking coffee at the folding table.

I walked in and I said: “Kill the radio.”

Somebody killed the radio.

I said: “Kid out there says he wants the noise.”

Two-Beer Tom said: “What noise.”

I said: “Our noise. He says he wants the noise. Says they don’t have any at home.”

I told them about the grandmother. I told them what I had figured out from him in about a four-minute conversation at the gate, with him answering in single words and looking at the toes of his sneakers most of the time. I told them about the deaf grandmother and the no TV and the no radio and the four blocks he was walking every afternoon to stand at our chain-link fence.

The clubhouse was very quiet for what was probably about thirty seconds.

I want to be honest with you about what some of these men’s first instinct was.

Carlos said: “Bring him in. Get him a soda. Let him sit on the couch.”

Big Mike, from under the Road King, said: “No.”

Big Mike rolled out from under the bike. He sat up on the floor. He’s six-foot-three and forty-eight years old and he was a juvenile parole officer in Kern County for fifteen years before he opened his own shop, and he knows children in a way most of us don’t.

He said: “You bring a seven-year-old into a clubhouse, even one like ours, and you screw up his life. CPS hears about it, his grandmother hears about it, his teacher hears about it — that’s a kid getting yanked out of a home he doesn’t want to leave. That’s lawyers. That’s a file. That’s a thing on his record at age seven.”

Big Mike said: “He’s not asking to come in. He said he wants the noise. So we give him the noise.”

Hank had been listening the whole time without saying anything. Hank does that. Hank looks at the ground when he’s thinking and you can almost hear him doing the math.

Hank looked up. Hank said: “We bring it to him.”

We figured it out in about twenty minutes.

Two brothers a day. On rotation. Starting at 3:58 p.m.. We would roll a bike out of the bay, all the way out, past the gate, onto the sidewalk in front of the clubhouse — right next to where Mateo stood. We would set up shop right there. Tools on a tarp. Compressor extension cord run out from the bay. Two folding chairs. A cooler.

And we would do what we always did. We would wrench. We would talk. We would yell at each other about the Raiders, about a stuck bolt, about whose turn it was to buy the next case. We would laugh loud. We would call to each other across the sidewalk. We would let a V-twin idle for two full minutes longer than it needed to, just because.

And we would not, at any point, ask Mateo to come in. We would not pull him into our world.

We would put our world on the sidewalk where his world ended, and we would let it be loud enough that he could stand in his world and hear ours.

That was Big Mike’s idea. That was Hank’s call. That was the vote.

The vote was 11-0.

The next afternoon at 3:58 p.m., Two-Beer Tom and Stinky rolled Stinky’s ’98 Softail out the bay, through the gate, onto the sidewalk in front of the chain-link, and parked it ten feet from where Mateo was standing.

They didn’t say anything to him at first. They just set up. Tarp on the concrete. Tool roll. Compressor. A cooler with two Cokes and four Coronas. They sat down on folding chairs and started wrenching on the rear cylinder head.

Tom said, loud: “Hand me the three-quarter.”

Stinky said, louder: “Get it your damn self.”

Tom said: “I’m holding the head, you idiot.”

Stinky said: “Yeah well I’m holding my coffee. Priorities.”

Tom laughed. The kind of laugh that comes out of fifty-eight-year-old smoker’s lungs. Loud. Cracked at the edges.

Mateo did not move from his spot. He did not smile. He just stood there with his arms at his sides and he listened.

After about ten minutes, Tom — and this is what Tom told me later — said, without looking at the kid, like he was talking to anyone in the world who happened to be near the sidewalk:

“Hey kid. You see that wrench by your foot? The little one. Toss it here, would ya.”

The wrench was not by Mateo’s foot. The wrench was on the tarp, six inches from Tom’s hand. Tom had moved it there on purpose ten seconds earlier.

Mateo looked down. He saw the wrench. He looked at Tom. He picked it up. He walked it three steps over and he held it out.

Tom took it. He said: “Thanks, brother.”

That was it. That was the whole interaction.

Mateo went back to his spot at the gate. He stood there until 4:30. Then he turned around and walked the four blocks home.

But here is the thing.

The next afternoon, when Tom looked over at 3:58 p.m. on the dot, Mateo was standing two feet closer than he had stood the day before.

The day after that, three feet closer.

By Friday of that week, he was sitting on the curb directly behind Stinky’s Softail with his elbows on his knees, listening to two grown bikers argue about a stripped bolt, and his mouth was open just slightly, like a kid in a movie theater watching a film for the first time in his life.

He still did not speak. Not for the first three months.

But every afternoon, for four years and three months, two of us were on that sidewalk by 3:58 p.m. with a bike, a tool roll, and the loudest mouths in Kern County.

The first time Mateo spoke a full sentence to one of us was January 17th, the next year. He was eight by then.

It was Carlos and me on the rotation that afternoon. We were swapping out a clutch lever on Carlos’s Dyna. Mateo was sitting on the curb in his usual spot, four feet behind us, eating a granola bar his grandmother had packed in his backpack.

Carlos dropped a circlip. Said a word he should not have said in front of an eight-year-old. Started looking for it on the concrete.

Mateo, behind us, said: “It’s by your boot.”

Carlos and I both froze. Carlos turned his head slow. He looked at the kid. The kid was pointing at Carlos’s left work boot. The circlip was under the toe.

Carlos picked it up. He said: “Good eye, brother.”

Mateo nodded. Once.

That was the start.

By the end of that year he was telling us which of us was a better mechanic (Big Mike) and which of us was the worst (Two-Beer Tom, who Mateo loved most). He was correcting Carlos’s pronunciation of the word “carburetor.” He was telling Hank, on the day Hank brought a new puppy to the clubhouse, that the puppy was scared and needed to be held lower to the ground.

He learned how to read torque specs from Big Mike at age nine. He learned how to listen for a misfire from Stinky at age ten. He learned, from all of us, words that his grandmother — who he adored, who he would die for, who he visited every single afternoon before he came to us — could not teach him. Not because she didn’t want to. Because she could not make a sound.

Rosalba came to the clubhouse exactly one time. October 9th, exactly one year after I had asked Mateo what he wanted at the gate. She walked the four blocks. She came up to the sidewalk where Hank and I were that afternoon. She had a piece of folded notebook paper in her hand.

She handed me the paper. I unfolded it.

She had written, in careful blocky printing:

Thank you for talking to him. He is happy. He sleeps now.

She did not stay. She nodded at Hank. She nodded at me. She walked the four blocks home.

I gave the note to Hank. Hank put it in his wallet. Hank still has it in his wallet eleven years later.

I asked Big Mike about the line — He sleeps now — six months later. I had been thinking about it. I had been wondering if I was reading it right.

Big Mike said: “Kids in silent houses don’t sleep. They lie there listening for somebody. When they hear nothing, they don’t shut down. He had nobody to confirm he existed at the end of the day. Now he does.”

Big Mike said: “We didn’t give him a clubhouse. We gave him proof he was real.”

Mateo is sixteen now.

He stopped coming to the sidewalk on a regular basis when he was eleven. By then he had friends — a kid named Devon who lived two doors down, and a kid named Ricky from his middle school. By then his grandmother had retired from the night-cleaning job and was home in the afternoons making him quesadillas. By then the silence in the little blue stucco house on East Brundage Lane was no longer the only silence in his life. He had filled it.

But he still walks past the clubhouse sometimes.

Every couple of weeks. On a Tuesday usually, around 4 p.m. He doesn’t always come up to the gate. Sometimes he just walks past on the other side of the street. We can clock him before we see him — sixteen-year-old kid in a black hoodie and white sneakers, hands in his pockets, listening.

When he does stop in, he sits on the couch. He talks to whichever brothers are there. He asks Big Mike for advice on his Civic, which he is fixing up for his sixteenth birthday. He calls Hank “sir.” He calls me “Tío.”

He does not call us his family. He has a family. It is a sixty-three-year-old retired cleaning lady on East Brundage Lane who has been the love of his life since he was three years old, and there is a bond between him and her that none of us could ever come close to.

We were just the noise.

He is the quietest sixteen-year-old in Bakersfield, and he is one of the kindest. Carlos’s wife says she has never seen a teenager with better manners. Two-Beer Tom says the kid will outlive us all and inherit the clubhouse and turn it into a Starbucks and we will deserve it.

I don’t think so. I think he’ll be a mechanic.

Last Tuesday, October 9th, was the eleventh anniversary of the day I asked him what he wanted at the gate. None of us said anything about it. We don’t keep that kind of calendar out loud.

He showed up at 3:58 p.m.

He walked through the gate. He sat on the couch. He had a paper bag in his hand. He set it on the workbench. He didn’t say what was in it.

After he left, Hank opened it.

Inside the bag was a small notebook. New. Black cover. On the first page, in careful blocky handwriting that looked very much like his grandmother’s:

Thank you for being loud.

Hank put the notebook in the drawer next to Rosalba’s note.

The bay door was up. The compressor was running. Carlos was yelling at Stinky about something. The radio was on too loud.

Outside, on the sidewalk, the wind moved an empty Coke can across the concrete and it made a sound like an old door.

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